Sage Suppositories
Hey ya’ll! It’s been a minute since I last hopped on here because well…. Life has been lif-ing. But here we are on August 22nd, and I am committing to showing up for everyone who might benefit from this. It is actually very cathartic for me to write to you all as well, so let’s do this together!
If you have looked at the title and thought oh my God! What is she writing about today? Well, I am about to tell you. If sage suppositories don’t exist in real life, they should. Hell, to be honest I should give myself one! Do you ever stop to think about all the things you carry around and you can’t seem to let go of them? Do you ever wonder about why other people react the way they do to things that seem so small at the moment? Yet, you’re like what did I do to them. Why did they react that way? Why did I react that way? It’s because we don’t face our own shit and let it GO! We carry around baggage like last year’s fall fashion and expect people to still want to hear about it as if it isn’t old news. Why are we sometimes so triggered by things? Why the actual hell do we do this to ourselves? What is it deep down that scares us about letting go of these things that no longer serve our highest and greatest good? Ok, that was a lot of questions so let’s get to the good stuff!
As human beings, as I assume most of you are, we do not like to take accountability. Let me say that again. We DO NOT like to take accountability. Why? Because it forces us to take a good long look at ourselves and acknowledge we have allowed some things that didn’t feel good. It requires us to dig a little deeper and wonder why we didn’t handle a certain situation better or not run away from confrontation when it probably wasn’t at all what we thought it was. We’re not good at apologizing because apologies are for suckers! Right? Wrong! We first need to start by apologizing to ourselves. In the moment we can only do or say what we’re equipped with at that very moment. There have been so many times I have carried things around for YEARS! Yes, I said years. I am talking ten plus. It pops in my head for some reason and the current version of me, first of all asks old me, why she’s wasting her time with this nonsense. Then for a moment I am like huh. Why did I allow so and so to speak to me that way? New me would have told her to eff right off! However, at the moment I was probably scared. Scared to be seen. Scared to be heard. Scared of how I would handle what came after I said exactly what I was thinking. I am here to share with you sometimes you just have to do it scared. It is unnatural to put ourselves and our feelings first but it shouldn’t be.
I task you with this. Every morning when you stand in front of the mirror just start by looking yourself in the eye and repeating, “I am sorry.” Even if it feels awkward and you really aren’t sure you have anything to be sorry for, just repeat it until it doesn’t feel weird anymore. When that starts to feel comfortable, start to say, “I am sorry for what I allowed when I didn’t know any better.” At a certain point you will be standing in front of the mirror boldly shouting, “I AM SORRY FOR WHAT I ALLOWED WHEN I DIDN’T KNOW ANY BETTER AND THAT SHIT WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN!” Once you have reached a point where you have released the anger take a moment to thank you. “Thank you for always having my back. Thank you for always getting me through rough times. Thank you for always allowing me to grow.” No matter how long it takes you always have to be there for you. To love yourself first. If you don’t know how to love you, how can you show others what you will tolerate and what you won’t?
It is Friday after all. When you are finally able to relax for the weekend just remember these few important tips. Sage suppositories may be theoretical and currently just the name of a blog post, but if they existed might cleanse our toxic shit right out! In the meantime, you have to do it yourself. I am sorry to break it to you! Don’t be afraid to face the ugly that you don’t want anyone to know or be too afraid to feel emotion that comes to the surface. It is most likely coming up so that you can feel it and LET THAT SHIT GO! We are not meant to hold onto things inside our bodies. We are spiritual beings having a human experience. So let it be just that, an experience. Move on to the next. Because I promise there will be plenty of other opportunities to be mad at yourself. Until then remind yourself you are doing great and flush whatever isn’t working for you. Now let’s get to it!